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I've decided it's time to move, change is good. You can add me over at ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) _backformore if you're interested. Otherwise, it's been real.
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[22 Jul 2005|09:31am] |
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So, yesterday was the day from hell. Work sucked. It took alllllll day to print out 2500 letters, and fold them, and we're still not finished! Printer kept jamming and the folding machine was being a bitch. I get home and phase one of our construction has begun. Half the trees were gone off the front lawn, along with all our bushes. I hate it. We have no mailbox, so we can't get mail. There's no fence, so the dogs need to be walked. We have no air conditioner, because it broke, and it's under warranty, but no one has come to fix it yet! so it's noisy with all the fans. My mom bought a portable ac which was a terrible ordeal and didn't even work, so she returned it and bought herself an air conditioner for her bedroom. Thanks bitch, I appreciate it. She bought me a fan, so that was good enough apparently. Spent 300 on the portable ac, and the small ac for the room was 80. Whatever, I'm not her responsibility or something. So then she says we cant leave our cars on the property, park it across the street because no one lives there. I'm like what the fuck i think not. So I took my car today and I need more gas because I drove around aimlessly last night. My life sucks. Physical therapy is weird. I wish i could do excercises in the pool. Apparntly I'm super flexible because I have retarted ligaments, which if i'm not careful, could cause damage when i'm older. Wonderful. I watched hitch last night, and it was great. Then I cried because if you know the movie, that was perfect at the end. If only. I cried some more and more and more after that. I hate being emotionally screwed. Not fun.
Then today I wake up, poke my eye TWICE! Once with the tag from the towel and then again with the mascara. Flipping through the radio I tune into a station only to hear someone win front row tickets to idol tomorrow night. The letters finally finished printing apparently, and instead of folding them for me, the bitch leaves them on my desk. whatever. i hate them both. whores. i hate that when i am upset with someone, i say mean things about them. it makes me feel bad to think like that. revelation last night. it's easier for me to hate someone then to feel upset over the fact that they hurt me. but eventually the hurt wins over. i still miss all the fun i had, but i wasn't good enough, so i'm trying to move on. i hate change.
i want to go home
ps annie, i took you off my friends list
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[26 Jun 2005|10:13pm] |
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So, yeah. I got very little accomplished cleaning my room because I suck. I'm like two years old and I have absolutely no attention span at all. I'll start cleaning and then I'll end up being a total whack nut. Like I put a pair of fishnets on my head and danced around, and then I put a fabric belt on my head like a head band and pretended I had long hair. I did some ballet dancing when I came across my ballet shoes, and I even did some baton twirling with the shower rod from my closet. Lmao. It is too big though so I was like OMG DON'T HIT ME IN THE FACE PLEASE KTHANX. Now I want a baton. But the most fun was taking pictures of the dog I love to hate. He was loving me today for some reason. He's the super cutest thing ever but he just needs to love me more. So, without further ado, I give you...
( Aiken the Superstar )
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[13 Jun 2005|08:48am] |
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Nope. I didn't make it. The girl who went right after me did though. Oh fucking well. To be honest, I'm only slightly dissapointed because I know that I was good. I was damn good. Even my mother thought so, and she always tells it like it is. If I was bad, she wouldn't have been so excited and she wouldn't have been telling everyone about how great I was. But guess what? I'm still going to Idol because I am so fucking better than that. WBLI can suck it. Here's a joke to make you laugh.
A single guy decides life would be more fun if he had a pet. So he wentto
the pet store and told the owner that he wanted to buy an unusual pet.
After some discussion, he finally bought a centipede (a 100-legged bug)
that came in a little white box to use for his house.
He took the box back home, found a good location for the box, and decided
he would start off by taking his new pet to church with him, so he asked the
centipede in the box, "Would you like to go to church with me today? We
will have a good time."
But there was no answer from his new pet.
This bothered him a bit, but he waited a few minutes and then asked him
again, "How about going to church with me and receive blessings?"
But again, there was no answer from his new friend and pet.
So he waited a few minutes more, thinking about the situation.
He decided to ask him one more time; this time putting his face up
against the centipede's house and shouting, "Hey, in there! Would you like to go
to church with me and learn about The Lord!?"
A little voice came out of the box:.....................
"I heard you the first time! I'm putting on my shoes."
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[11 Jun 2005|05:24pm] |
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My feet hurt like woah, but it was a seriously fun time! Ok, so I got there at 11:30, and I was number 228, only a handful of people showed up after me. 20 out of 250 is some good odds I would say. Honestly, no one was seriously spectacular, and if someone was, I would give them props. From 11:30 to 3:30, I went to the bathroom 4 times!!! LMAO. So they had a few judges this time, someone from a local performing arts college, a recording artist, who performed at the beginning Taborah and none other than our own Idol, Joe Murena!!! In case you don't remember him, he made it to the top 12 guys. Simon said he sounded like a waiter in a portugese restaurant. Lmao. He sang Faithfully and I have to admit, he was looking pretty hot, and sounding good. Much better than I recall from Idol. So then it begins. There was a performance a la Constantine, where this dweeb sang How you remind me and he picked up the mic stand and everything. Sadly, it was bad, and he didn't even look cool. Alot of I turn to you, At last, Alicia Keys. Someone sang Independence Day, and someone else sang a song I had been thinking about, When will I be loved. So finally it's my performance time, I stepped out onto that stages and I was like, bitches, I am your Idol, and I owned it. I super impressed my mothers cousin, and I'm pretty sure my mom was way proud, she even told people at work I was going to sing! And Joe Murena himself was bobbing along to the song. I was like, score! He watched me the entire time, so that had to be a good sign. So then it was over and I did very little shopping. Plus, my mom got me a gift too, which was this super nifty star jewelry box that has mini star charms inside, and they say dreams, hope, believe, make a wish. I loved it. Pictures are behind the cut if you want to see. The most exciting thing? The two story walmart with the escalator for your shopping cart. How lame am I? Oh, and I rode the escalator with Joe Murena. oooh, lmao. I am lame. I find out Monday, and then everyone needs to go and vote and tell their friends to tell their friends. ( Pretty pretty! )
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I am freezing cold, I stayed up too late last night. This isn't really a decent entry, more like a bunch of random crap because i know you all missed me.
my office is freezing and i want to go home, i am tired, my knees hurt and i haven't gone to the gym in a while, i thought idol was boring crap, but carries song at the end was the best, i voted 250 times, a record for me, i hate ticketmaster and they can suck, i also hate people who feel the need to bash someone else to support another and i think that's about it for now
vote for me, haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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I came into work today to some pathetic protestors. They were all older, like senior citizen age. I don't know where it came from, but they were protesting Planned Parenthood, saying abortion is wrong and there's so many people who want to adopt and yadda yadda, and they had pictures, huge posters of fetus's. There was a gross one too, but I didn't see it. I don't think I should have to see something like that. I know it exists, but you can't force people to have kids. The world is not a dictatorship, hello.
Gosh, anyways. It's finally Friday, woo! Last night, Aiken woke up in the middle of the night and went into my room, I was still up, and he comes back out dragging my bra. The little shit chewed the bra strap! But then you look at his face and you're like, oh you're just too cute! He's been really bitey lately. Yesterday when I came home from work, I went to go take a nap, and he jumped on my bed, I have this pile of crap next to the bed that he runs up and climbs onto to get up. So he's walking on my pillow and barking in my ear like get the fuck up bitch! It was funny, he likes to chew on my hands and arms for some reason. Now he bites he even harder and he like tries to pull my fingers off, shaking his head all growly like. I need to start teaching him tricks.
I still haven't decided if I'm going to school for the fall or not. My mom was giving me the lecture. "If you're going to go you better get A's, Aunt Patricia works really hard to get good grades, yadda, yadda, yadda." Yeah, I'm one of those lazy idiots who just slides by, kind of. Unless it was english or some kind of creative arts class. I never studied for tests, I always see people I know studying like crazy and I'm like gosh, I was never that carried away. B student with no effort, I'm stupid, who knows where I could be right now if I had actually applied myself? They are giving me $7,500 in loans. Which is good, because if I take all that, I can use the leftover funds to pay off all my other bills, the most the interest can be is 8.25%, compared to 28%, that's a hell of alot better! The hard part is not spending anymore money on the credit cards that are still in good standing! Not much, but some. I get so proud of myself when I see the balance slowly going down.
LMAO! They are having a Napoleon Dynamite festival. Tater tot eating contest, sweet bike contest, and some other stuff. I'm amused. Ok, I think that's enough rambling for now. I need to put some new icons on here, gosh.
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[13 Apr 2005|11:54am] |
TWO POTS
An elderly Chinese woman had two large pots, each hung on
the ends of a pole, which she carried across her neck. One of the pots
had a crack in it while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a
full portion of water. At the end of the long walk from the stream to
the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full.
For a full two years, this went on daily, with the woman bringing home
only one and a half pots of water. Of course, the perfect pot was proud
of its accomplishments. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it could only do half of what it had been made to do
After 2 years of what it perceived to be bitter failure, it spoke to the woman one day by the stream. "I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house."
The old woman smiled, "Did you notice that there are flowers on your side of the path, but not on the other pots' side? That's because I have always known about your flaw, so I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back, you water them. For two years, I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate the table. Without you being just the way you are, there would not be this beauty to grace the house."
Each of us has our own unique flaw. But it's the cracks
and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very
interesting and rewarding.
You just have to take each person for what they are and
look for the good in them.
To all of my crackpot friends, I love you the way you
are!! Have a great day and remember to smell the flowers...
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I don't know why, but when I woke up this morning, this song was on my mind.
( Undiscovered )
I feel like listening to some serious soul, gospel, spiritual music. Like "Wade in the water" type stuff. I heard this beautiful song on the radio this morning, "Still an angel" by Rachel Davis. I just ordered her cd, and I can not wait to hear it, her voice and lyrics are inspiring, and pure.
For a second, I believed it. The more and more I thought about it, things started to make sense. I am a good person. I am not a coward and a liar. In fact, I pride myself on that. I think that's one of the lowest things possible. To lie. To be a coward. If you can't be honest with others, that means you can not be honest to yourself, and you are living a lie. I get thrown off track for a bit when things like this happen, but then I pull myself together and brush the dirt off. There is alot to who I am, and where I'm going. These are just the lessons I need to learn to get there. I am beautiful inside, and out. I have flaws, yes, I am not perfect. But I acknowledge them with an open mind. I have never met some of my friends on here, or seen their picture. But I know that they are truly beautiful. Lauren, that would be you I'm speaking of. You need to start believing in yourself, and then the rest will follow. Ashley Seacrest, you have alot of potential in you, try and make sense of the obstacles you have faced. Don't put up a fight just to rebel. You need a cause. Nadine, I'm not sure what to say about you, but I wanted to mention you as well, because you are special, and important. I hope you're enjoying your new puppy. Joanie, As my cousin, we've been through alot together. I don't understand why you haven't used your talent to take you to places you've never dreamed of going. You have such an incredible voice, and often when I hear you sing, it makes me cry. I'm sorry that you have to struggle because of ignorance. I am proud of what you have, what you've become, and what you're going to accomplish. I know I've told you time in and time out, but I am so honored to be taking such a special part in your marriage to Terr. I don't care what George Bush says. A marriage is a union between two people that love each other dearly. I am glad that you found Terry, and I think she is great. I always feel so welcome when I come to your house. You too, need to believe in yourself more. Terry, You're soon to be part of my family, not like you aren't already! I don't know much about you, aside from the fact you deliver mail, in all kinds of terrible weather, and you have to walk no less! That you love Harry Potter and Joan Jett, and that you love Joanie. I'm excited for you and Joanie to start your family and I will be more than happy to babysit of course! I think you're a wonderful and kind person, and I'm honored to have you as part of my family. Thank you for making Joanie happy. Jen (shayled), Don't believe what everyone else tells you. It's not always true. You can take yourself very far if you try hard enough. You have much talent and potential inside. Annie, Nothing to say here really. The good times will remain memories, thanks for being there. Ashley H., I think we're alike in more ways than one, I see that you enjoyed your Clarksoness, holla. I think you already know what I could say to you, so I'll just say that I'm glad we've worked things out. Candice, Dear Lord, there is so much to be said here, but I've said it time in and time out again, and you know it already, nothing has really changed. I'm happy to see you're trying to overcome some of the difficulties in your life. Mad props. You're another one who needs to believe in herself. Milly, A realtime friend who has been my friend for about two years now. So, I guess I'm doing something right there. It's nice to know that you understand me now. I wish that you could see what I see. You need to build yourself up, and not allow ignorant people to hurt you. You are beautiful, intelligent and talented, but you lack confidence. I don't think that's your fault though, perhaps it is because of the way you were raised. Be proud of who you are. Let the world hear you roar. I could go on and on, but I think you get the point. Lydia, Thanks for being my friend too, and understanding, and supporting. It seems to me you've pretty much got your life under control. I wish you all the best in obtaining your goals. I'm sure you will be amazingly successful. Allison!!! Dude, I was listening to the radio and Badly Drawn Boy came on, gosh, memories :-[ and then I was like I FORGOT TO SAY SOMETHING ABOUT ALLISON! So sorry. Glaad and the Qafness of our lives has been fun, like woah. I will forever share my first memory of sleeping on the streets of NYC with you. I think you are much fun, but too hard on yourself.
In closing, I'm throwing out this song which has also been running through my head. It kicks some serious ass, and I love it.
( I love myself today )
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OHMYGOD! That was the craziest hour I ever spent up front at the desk. I have talked way to much to people today. They need to leave me alone. Sigh. I am dying. There was a crazy student. I was a little worried. I hate when people just start to make conversation with me. I don't care. Leave me alone please. Unless you want to talk about Clay. Even then. No. I am not very open to people I don't know. I get all embarassed when people ask me about Clay too. Lmao. Idk why. Yesterday the computer tech guy came over and he was like so, you like clay huh? I was like yeah. *nervous smile* Is that Clay singing? (i had on clack radio) Yeah. *embarassed smile*
WHY AM I EMBARASSED ABOUT MY LOVE OF CLAY AIKEN!?! Sigh. My life.
Now I am off to my cousins house for birthday cake and we will probably watch Idol there too. You should all miss me, but I bet you won't. *plays the worlds tiniest violin* or whatever the saying is. Oh dear lord. I am like so crazy today. What is with me?
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So this morning as we're driving into work I heard this song. I'm always flipping through the different stations and sometimes I come across something really great, that I've never heard before and I'm like wow, that's good. This is a song from The Who, I'm guessing that most of you have no clue who they are, but they seem to have alot of great songs. They didn't announce the title after they played it, and I wasn't talking to my mom, so I didn't ask. But I forgot the lyrics and stubborn as I am I went through all the album lyrics on a website. Finally found it and thought I'd share! I think Jen will be most interested.
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I forgot to mention about the disgusting cheetos I bought. They turn your tongue either Yoda Green, or Darth Vader Dark. I'm easily amused, what can I say? I think I'll end up feeding them to our dog Eddie. He is a big old cheeto head!
So, rumor has it Clay recorded a Richard Marx song for his new album. How fucking hot would that be if it was true? But last time I checked, Richard Marx wasn't exactly upbeat!
I made a new photobucket album, Idol Icons, but there is nothing there yet. They will be basic icons, cropped and bordered. Nothing too special. If you have any requests, just throw them at me.
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Ok, so people in LA do not used the word "jumped" appropriately. Ryan is telling a story about how their intern was jumped at an atm machine last night, and I was like, ohmygosh, that's terrible. So then he's like we have her here and she's going to talk about it. I'm like... growing up I have learned that the word jumped means someone surprises you and kicks your ass. Not someone leaning over to swipe your atm card from you. Jeeze.
So, anyway. The Glaad awards. Those were fun times. I am so going to be a celebrity escort next year. You get a way cool headset, you get to go backstage when your celeb is going to present their award, AND YOU GET TO WALK DOWN THE RED CARPET!!!! Sigh. That is just like serious greatness. My friend Allison notices more people than I, like the dudes from America's Top Model and the Bravo gay weddings dudes. Hal Sparks hosted and he was hotness, came with a girlfriend. I didn't get to see him up close though. I got there early and we saw how everything works, like they have people go up to the podium and read the teleprompter. Everything is teleprompted practically. It was interesting to me at least. When I was doing check in, two guys gave me props for my nails. I was like HOLLA! Then we snuck downstairs into the show and were hanging out around the bar and got to see all the cool people pass by. Chad Allen, ALAN CUMMING!!! The Queer Eye guys, Bruce Villanch (barf on a stick) The Queer eye guys passed us alot, they never seem to sit down. So then we went out into the lobby because I wanted to try and get a picture with Alan Cumming who was wearing sneakers with lifts, lmao. They were some serious platform shoes. I saw him but he was talking to his escort so I was like eh nevermind. So then Allison and I are standing there and Stanley Tucci and Carson Kressley start conversing right in front of us. It wasn't anything too exciting but it was fun. I saw Billy Crystal up on stage but not too close. Out in the lobby Phil Donahue and Marlo Thomas walked past us. My mom wanted to talk but she chickened out. She is so lame. So then I was waiting for Tim Curry and Allison is like !!! THERE HE GOES! But the bastard was like walking out of there like a bat out of hell, and then he went past everyone and over to the elevators and I thought about going to ask him for a picture but I was afraid he would tell me no and then I would hate him. So I refrained, but I was like with in five feet of him. He sang a song about Billy Crystal during the awards show. Then I went home and that was it. I have pictures but they are seriously crappy, I'll fix and post anyway. Plus Allison has her own red carpet pics and if she'll be so kind, I will share with you all.
So, my mom just called me to tell me Aiken peed on his pad. Lmao. I swear, it's almost like having a child. Yesterday I took him to my old office and everyone swarmed to him, all the ladies and even the guys. They were all awwwwwwwww how old is he? Then when they asked for his name this is what happened EVERY time.
Them: "What's his name?"
Me: Pause. "Aiken"
Them: "As in Clay?"
Me: Sigh. "Yes"
I wanted to kill them all. I seriously had no idea that Clay was so well known. Then I took him to my cousin and soon to be, um...something's house (cousin in-law maybe?), Joanie and Terry, who are getting married on September something of this year and I am the maid of honor!!! He met his cousin, Jett. Who is a papillion dog. She's cute, but she was a little afraid of him. Aiken just ran all over the house, played with her toys, ate her treats, humped her head. Lmao. I think they'll get to be good friends and it will be really cute. The car ride each way was pretty long and he fell asleep each time, but he couldn't sit on the passenger seat, nooooo, he had to stay on my lap, and I had to hold him with one hand. Not very safe, but what can you do? I am falling in love with him lots. I just can't wait for him to master the whole potty training thing. He likes to bark at his poop like it's a criminal or something, lmao. He gets down and growls at it and tries to attack it. When he wants me to hold him he scratches at my leg and sometimes he runs down the hall with a sock or slipper in his mouth and it's bad for them, but so damn cute! I want to teach him to do a back flip. My mom stayed home today and my brother left with her and they put Aiken in the cage. Well, my mom comes home and Aiken and Franny are at the door waiting for my mom to come in! So cute. Franny and Aiken get along fairly well, sometimes Fran gets pissed at him and she's always trying to steal his treats. But when he starts crying she comes over and licks his head. :-[ It is the cutest thing ever.
So, I'm back to work after a four day weekend. It is so great! Only three days left to go until the weekend. I think they should redo the work week. Lmao. Ho hum, what else to say? I bought some new karaoke cd's, it has Heart's Alone on it and Kelly Clarkson's new songs on the other, Behind these hazel eyes, Because of you and some other songs, I forgot. I just really wanted Because of you. So I'm looking forward to that. I am going to have some karaoke collection soon.
How much did Idol suck last night? I swear, Paula is on drugs. She is just seriously crazy. Mostly everyone sucked, Vonzell was the best, Constantine was decent, I wasn't impressed. Carrie and Jessica were alright. I totally can sing "I'm the only one" so much better than Nadia did. Anthony Fed? GTFO. He needs to go. He sounded terrible and it was funny, my mom, brother and I watch the show together. My brother says he reminds him of Marc Anthony and my mom was like I was going to say that and I was going to say it too! He does though. From the way he moves to the sound of his voice. Only he's not nearly as good!
The new Kylie Minogue song is pretty hot. I believe in You. Very sweet song. I like the new song by Akon, Lonely. It be the hotness. I dled 6 different remix versions of Since U been gone last night. I'm still waiting for WBLI to do their cheesy Island Idol contest. I better make it this time or I will be pissed fo sho.
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Peace out. It's been real kiddo.
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LJ Friends Meme by coolerq• You must tell 5 people about this game.
• Clay Aiken is the one that you love.
• Ryan Seacrest is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Rose.
• Annie is the one who knows you very well.
• Milly is your lucky star.
• Toxic is the song that matches with Clay Aiken.
• This Love is the song for Ryan Seacrest.
• I will remember you is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and Gasolina is the song telling you how you feel about life
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